Monday, February 23, 2009

Anticipatory Anxiety

In the last month, we were in such a celebratory mood. We were telling everyone about the great news of "Hope." (No, it ain't Obama's stimulus package). We were so excited, we virtually told everybody about our adoption news.
But this week, the stark reality of this last phase of the adoption process has hit me.

We are getting a 2nd kid!!!! AHHH!!


Reality
Travel Arrangements and packing- I can't believe that in a month or so, we're going to lug suitcases and baby "stuff" to China. We're going to do the diaper thing and jars of tasteless baby food all over again.

Jet Lag- Owen just came back from his missions trip from the Philippines.
His sleeping pattern is still slightly off. I'm just wondering how it'll be when all 4 of us return and how Faith and Hope will adjust?

Attachment- In our hearts and mind, Hope is our daughter. But, will she like us? Will she emotionally attach and connect to our family? Will she get along with her older sister Faith? What's her personality going to be like?

Going Back To Work- Like all families that have a new baby, you have those first few weeks (maternity leave) to adjust to the new child. But, we won't have that. We will go back to work immediately. We're going to have to be a tag team, working some hours from home and taking turns being at the office.

Having A Second Child- The ratio was 2:1, parent to child. But now it's going to be divide and conquer. It's going to be one on one. Scary, the little muchkins can gang up on us.

BUT
After some breathing exercises (breath in, breath out), I had to turn to the bible for some comfort. "Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them,. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?" Luke 12:24-26





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